Wednesday, June 16, 2010
June 16th, 2010
I have days that I am very sad when I think of all of Kinnick and Carver's delays and disabilities. I'm sad that they can not see the things we see. I'm sad that they have to work so hard to do the smallest things. I'm sad that they have to go through so many painful surgeries. I'm sad that Carver can only hear with his CI's on. I'm sad that Carver can not walk. I'm sad that Carver can't sit by himself. I'm sad that they can't enjoy a bag of M&M's. I'm sad that they still require their G-tubes for a great deal of their nutrition. It just seems so unfair. It's so hard to believe that God has a plan for these beautiful children. It's so hard to understand why they need to struggle like this as part of the plan. I know God doesn't make mistakes, and I try to be strong, but some days are just harder then others. I love my children with all of my heart, but it just breaks to see them struggle some days.